My online voice is strong, confident and sure of herself. In person I CAN be like that once I’m confident (I can be a total chatterbox), but more often than not I am very quiet. It’s this dumb social anxiety that I picked up when I was young. Around huge crowds I get irritable, quiet and find it very hard to come out of my shell.
I’ve had very few very close friends. I have some deep rooted trust issues which I’ll explain at a later time regarding my sister and my grandmother, but since this is going to be a positive day…we’ll leave those two alone today.
I want to start working on being less shy and more social. I need to start making friends outside of my little comfort zone. I want to practice getting comfortable in large groups of people. Am I being weird? I totally think so, but I’m sure a few of you can relate to the feeling of needing a few great friends.
My little goals are quite simple:
- Head out with some friends or coworkers
- Enjoy a holiday party and try to interact with those I’m not familiar with
- Spoil myself a bit to feel special and worthy of new friendship
What about you guys, are you a social butterfly or are you a quiet observer like myself?
I hope you are enjoying the weekend so far!
All my love,
Stacia (and Gummi Bear)